I am a seamstress, photographer, painter, and whatever other kind of artist you can think of. I’m also a single mother of three girls (ages seven, nine, and twelve). I’m not in a situation in which I can un-school or home school, so the traditional public school system is my only option. Art in all of its forms is my life — and my children are my life.
I’m a horrible housekeeper, terrible at schedules and routines — but my kids need them, they thrive on them. However, every time I get us on a schedule I start experiencing an actual feeling of sickness — an extreme tightness between my shoulder blades that causes me to snap at my children and anyone else in snapping distance. I also fall physically ill if I’m away from my art, from creating for too long. I’ve tried scheduling my artistic forays, but that doesn’t seem to work, either.
It’s very difficult to be faced with two options: be artistic on cue, or stop in the middle of my inspiration to fix dinner, help with homework, or do a bedtime routine. The end result of all this internal conflict is complete and utter failure at both my art and raising my children in a healthy clean environment. I am curious: has anyone else out there dealt with this conflict? Have you found a solution that’s healthy for everyone? — FallynRaiyn