I want to be pregnant… but I don’t want to be a parent

Guest post by Cassie Robertson
By: Sean McGrathCC BY 2.0

I’m slightly obsessed with pregnancy — I even scared friends and family by reading What to Expect When You’re Expecting when I was 14. I was 20 when my biological clock’s alarm started ringing, and no one was surprised when I spent my birthday gift card on The Thinking Woman’s Guide to a Better Birth. I have a birth plan in place, know that I want to use a birthing center instead of a hospital, and I drink my morning coffee while watching Birth Day. This offbeat reader wants to be pregnant like WHOA. Here’s the tricky part: I do NOT want kids.

I look at pregnant women with envy; I look at mothers with pity. Don’t ask me how I managed to wired this way. I promise, I’m odd in other ways too. So how does a proudly Child-Free woman cope with the desire to get pregnant? It took me a while to find the answer: surrogacy.

It’s perfect. I get to have my cake and give it away as soon as it cries. But wouldn’t you know it, surrogacy isn’t as easy as you might think.

I was 20 when I first looked into surrogacy. I joined the websites, learned the lingo, and quickly learned that I was ineligible to join any surrogacy agency. First, I am seriously overweight and second, I’ve never had a child.

I do understand why those things are a problem. Being overweight can cause some serious pregnancy complications and, as an untried surrogate, who knows if I even can get pregnant? Plus, everyone swears that I’ll change my mind about wanting kids when I feel the baby kick. I smile, shrug, and say “Maybe.” (I know other Child-free women can relate to that!)

So now, at 23, I’ve decide to tackle the first of the reasons why I can’t be a surrogate. I’ve changed the way I eat and the way I work out. I have a lot to go still, but my desire to get pregnant is stronger than my desire for ice cream.

It’s pretty rough knowing that. I wonder, are there other women like me out there? Women who want to change their bodies to put their bodies through hell and then give away the prize? Most people who know about my desire to be a surrogate either think I’m crazy, I’ll change my mind as I age, or they just plain don’t understand. Trying to explain a biological, emotional decision is nearly impossible.

As every reader on this site knows, pregnancy is an incredibly emotional process. I promise you, it is no different for me. I don’t want kids, so I take the pill, but then I hope that an accident will occur and I’ll get pregnant. I don’t WANT to deal with an accidental pregnancy and be forced to choose between adoption and raising a child, but it would take care of that “never had a child” problem, wouldn’t it?

The less logical side of me is very tempted by that idea. I take pregnancy tests with a mix of thoughts ranging from “This is a waste of money. You’re NOT pregnant” to “God, what if it’s positive?” to “Please be positive.” I don’t tell people about these feelings much because I already know that they don’t really get it. Can I blame them? Even on this offbeat site I’ve never read about a wannabe surrogate mother.

People will still think I’m crazy when they hear my story, but what does that matter? A friend of mine wants children but can’t have them. She’s asked me to be her surrogate when we’re both ready. She’s going to be an amazing mother and isn’t that what surrogacy is all about? If I get to fulfill a dream of mine in the process, then that’s just a great bonus.

Comments on I want to be pregnant… but I don’t want to be a parent

  1. I’m also really interested in pregnancy and birth (and women’s health issues in general), and read on and around the topic voraciously, but I hide it, because I think people will think it’s odd that a young childless woman with no plans for a baby in the next five years is interested in the pros and cons of an epidural and the physiology of the pelvic floor.
    I’m considering doing a doula training course so I can learn more. Maybe that would be something you could do too: up-close experience of pregnancy and birth without the baby or the surrogacy issues.

    • I think I’m very much in the same boat as you, but for different reasons.
      I have never thought of myself as motherly. Never wanted any part of it. I’m 26 now, and have always known that I didn’t want children of my own.
      When I was 19 I had a surprise pregnancy. I was careful, but life happens. Long story short, I chose adoption. I knew I couldn’t do it and wanted the best for my little person.
      Pregnancy was annoying, but not hard. It was very interesting phisiologically. I thought it was really neat how the body moves around and readjusts to accomodate the new addition.
      Not gonna lie, it really grossed me out and disturbed me on some levels, but eventually I got used to it. I had poking games where she would kick at my belly and I’d poke where her foot was, and so on.
      As I wasn’t planning on raising this child, I was granted a very cool viewpoint on all the information thrown at me. I kept up to date week-by-week on all the pregnancy websites, and since none of the life-planning applied to me, I really zoned in on all of the physical things.
      To this day I feel my stomach anytime I’m exceptionally worried, because I remember what it was like. I see pregnant women and instantly sympathize, because I was there.
      Strangely enough I wound up living with my best friend and her two young children for four years after this. I love them as an unrelated aunt, and occasionally have bouts of what we always called “the baby rabies” where I think I might want to do that again and have a child.
      Then I remember the times the two year old threw yoghurt on my sleeping face, or the five year old refusing to come downstairs because we laughed at a joke she made. Not even going to get into potty training and the first year of the pterodactyl stage of infants. And I’m good.
      The ongoing relationship with the parents of my biological child is wonderful. I met her this year and it was so surreal. Sure, my heart went out to her, but she was so well-adjusted and cared for that I was proud of her family. Only good things.
      I actually just submitted an application to a local surrogacy agency today. I feel like it’s a waste for me to not have any children due to my own predelection while couples can’t conceive but want that family so much. It really is a great feeling.
      That said, pregnancy is likely the most metal and most interesting health-related phenomena I have ever come across. The entire body adjusts to this. My hips actually dislocated for a while (they eventually settled) during my third trimester. How does the body just do that? It’s fascinating.
      I definitely say becoming a doula would be the most rewarding thing without being pregnant yourself.
      And I can say that even if we don’t think we need help, we do need someone who is willing to be screamed at and also be able to check the child for all of its fingers and toes in the same breath.

  2. Wow, I’m really glad that this article was written. Not necessarily because I can relate (I don’t enjoy being pregnant, but I want a child so I’m dealing, lol), but more because I am astounded by the selflessness of surrogacy.

    I really have to commend anyone who is willing to go this route and become a surrogate. To give up your body for 9 months, to deal with the stretch marks and the pain of labour, etc, all for another person is, in my mind, an incredible sacrifice.

    So, I would just like to thank Offbeat Mama and Cassie for sharing this story, because I really believe that the surrogates side of the story is rarely told.

    • When my clock started ticking- I looked into surrogacy and started learning everything I could about pregnancy/birth even though I had no plans to be a mother at that time- and much like you was told I was not a good candidate for surrogacy because I had never been pregnant.
      I have since found the most amazing husband- who wants a family as much as I do. (It’s a good thing he doesn’t have a uterus!) I still haven’t lost the desire to adopt and to be a surrogate. Most people think I am ‘wired funny’ for having a desire to do all three- that they would somehow contradict each other- but I don’t think they do. My husband is onboard for adoption and surrogacy too. I don’t think of it as a ‘sacrifice’ but as a gift. I wish you the best of luck and hope you are able to accomplish your dreams. You aren’t alone at all! I’ve lost 60lbs- you can do it!

  3. I feel the same way as Cassie. I do have a daughter but my fiance and I definitely don’t want anymore kids, in fact he’s even been fixed. But part of me really wants to be pregnant again. I’ve looked into surrogacy and agencies wont accept me because I live in Indiana, and it’s not legal here. Through Indiana parents who use surrogacy have to adopt their own child. I would love to be able to give someone the greatest joy of their life, and I hope the laws change soon.

    • I am currently a surrogate (through an agency) and I live in Indiana. Not sure who told you it’s illegal here but it’s not! The laws are simply very ambiguous, therefore not necessarily favorable for surrogacy and this causes many agencies to turn away people from IN. There are agencies that will take you though. It’s also not true that a couple has to adopt their own baby. My IPs will go on the birth certificate from the moment the baby is born. Feel free to contact me if you want to chat more.

        • After my surrobaby is born I would love to write something for OM to show the positive side of a successful surrogacy! I’m not currently allowed to talk about any details publicly per my contract but after the birth I will be an open book. 🙂

        • Have you seen the blog Baking Someone Else’s Baby? It’s written by a gestational surrogate, and she’s about halfway through the pregnancy. It’s a really interesting process!

          Agreed on seeing more surrogacy stories; you only ever seem to hear negative things about how surrogacy is weird, and never about how amazing it can be.

          • Hi! I’m the author of Baking Someone Else’s Baby! Thanks for the referral (even though I don’t even have ads on my surroblog. I’m just happy to get the word out)! To the Powers That Be here at Offbeat Mama, I’d be happy to write something about surrogacy if you’re interested. 🙂 It’s such an amazing process, and as has been said here, it’s not nearly well-known enough and there’s a ton of stigma surrounding it. There are so many amazing things to say, I’d love to say them to a wider audience than my blog gets.

  4. become a dula or a pregnancy counselor or something… that might help a little.

    i do not enjoy being pregnant… it is hell on your body… you gain lots of weight, you become moody, you have insane mood swings where one minute you are crying, the next minute you are happy… you can’t sleep, you have to pee every five minutes, you can’t fit into regular clothes forever after words and during, labor hurts like mad, you are uncomfortable the whole nine months, you get big stretch marks… and to top it off you can’t wait for it to be over… for me, my joints hurt, i get restless leg syndrome super bad, i get carpal tunnel, heart burn the whole nine months, not to mention the awful morning sickness… i am super surprised that you would want that and crave that!! no part of it is fun! and labor HURTS. FOR HOURS.

    for me, my favorite part is the baby afterword. i put up with the pregnancy so i can kiss a newborn’s head. so i can cuddle with a baby while they nurse from my breast.

    but if that is what you want, more power to you… i hope you become a surrogate for someone some day! you will be giving someone a great gift.

    • On the flip side, not every woman experiences the same physical ailments of pregnancy. While I wouldnt say that I love being pregnant, I did enjoy most of it. I never felt more attractive & confident than I did when I was pregnant. The labor experience, as well, runs the gamut. While parts of my labor were incredibly uncomfortable and/or painful, it was also mercifully short.

      • There are many different pregnancy stories. I was sick the whole 9 months, but my very good friend only had cravings! She really wants to be a surrogate in the future.
        Even though I had a hard pregnancy, I think that I felt so much more connected to the world, I felt emotions so deeply. So that was really beautiful : ) I can understand wanting to be apart of the cycle of life !

      • I agree. I’m almost 22 weeks pregnant and there are things about pregnancy that i loathe but so many more things that i love! I haven’t had morning sickness but i’ve had extreme fatigue, achy bones and joints, an excessive need to pee, and something called costochondritis in my ribs which is very painful… and may actually be my gallbladder, (i go for an ultrasound for my gallbladder in four days). BUT i do feel so much more confident in how my body looks, which i find strange because i’ve always been so self conscious about my weight, its an amazing feeling knowing that there is a tiny little person growing in there, and i absolutely LOVE feeling him kick and move around! My fiance and i weren’t trying to conceive, and i wasn’t even sure that i wanted to have children, but now we both feel like this is the best thing to ever happen to us. All the negatives that come along with being pregnant definitely make it worth it!

    • I’m sorry you had such a negative pregnancy experience. I loved being pregnant, but don’t really want any more babies until the current bean is old enough to weight in on the sibling issue. I would almost love being a surrogate, except I did not have a successful labor, and I’m sure that would put off most agencies.

  5. I think her feelings are similar to that of someone who is a mother, wants to be a surrogate and just flat out doesn’t want MORE kids. She enjoys the way her life is now, but wants to help someone have a child.
    I can understand why the rules are the way they are, she may have a terrible pregnancy and regret her choice, or even worse something could go wrong. But hopefully helping her trusting friend when they’re ready will be a positive experience and she can have a better idea of if she’d like to do it again.

  6. I can relate, for the most part. I’m very much eligible to be a surrogate, but I’m not totally sure if it’s the right thing for me. I have one child and a second on the way, but I’m really not interested in having more than two. I do kind of enjoy being pregnant though, and I would like to do it again. It’s something I generally don’t talk about. Simply put, most people don’t understand in the least.

  7. I absolutely relate to this post. I am fascinated by pregnancy and think it is something I would like to experience, but I have very little interest in being a parent. Since I’ve been married for over two years, many people misinterpret my interest in babies and pregnancy as an interest in having children. That’s sort of annoying.

    And you’re right- this is not a feeling people talk about much. But I think you’ll find that you’re not alone. I’m sure some child-free women have no interest in pregnancy, but not all of us!

  8. Wow…

    I enjoyed reading this, I never really thought about what a surrogate might be thinking or why someone would want to do it. I do appreciate this website for so many different views on motherhood. I have to admit (I’m 8 months pregnant now) that I really really enjoy being pregnant. Sure, there are a few pain in the butt moments, but I have had it easy. I’m a lot more worried about what happens when the baby comes out! Right now it’s easy, baby can stay in for now. So I guess I kind of understand the feeling, but I never would have known that prior to getting pregnant.

    Good luck finding your path to fulfillment!

  9. While I commend the author for wanting to do something so selfless, I can’t say that I necessarily support her desire to be a surrogate before having any children of her own. Without knowing how your body would react to pregnancy, you’d be very hard-pressed to find IPs who would be willing to take a chance with you, and the ones who were willing would likely be very desperate (which rarely ends well).

    There are so many factors to take into consideration, like whether you’d have complications, how you’d handle the hormones, if you can even stay pregnant. You might HATE being pregnant, and that’s not healthy either.

    I personally feel it is SO important to have at least one pregnancy under your belt as sort of a track record. Here is why: IPs have typically gone through years and huge expenses before *starting* surrogacy. They are probably tapped out and are stretching things to even try through surrogacy. That means they have to go with the absolute most likely best-chance scenario for obtaining pregnancy, maintaining a healthy pregnancy, safe birth for surro and baby, financially predictable as much as possible, stable and smooth journey as possible. Someone who has never been pregnant does NOT meet those criteria. If you get lucky and things go off without a hitch, then you have made someone’s life. But if anything goes wrong as a result of not knowing how you will handle being pregnant, it could be potentially devastating.

    I don’t feel it’s responsible to take that gamble with someone else’s child just because you are obsessed with pregnancy. I’m not saying this to be mean or harsh, I’m just trying to put forth the very real aspects that you need to consider.

    I wish you the best of luck if you still desire to move forward with surrogacy. As a surrogate myself, I can say it has been the most rewarding experience of my life.

    • This is 100% exactly what I was going to say. I would recommend going to private therapy before you consider looking into surrogacy any further. There may be a reason you are obsessed with becoming pregnant that has nothing to do with pregnancy.

      The fact that you would consider getting pregnant and giving it away for adoption just to be eligible to become a surrogate raises a flag with me. (I say this as a Marriage, Youth, and Family counselor.)

      • I have to sya I disagree with you, I have known the writer for years and as finishing my psychology degree as of last year, I can say that I do not see “red flags”, if you knew her you would understand. Judgement is somethingno one can pass on others

      • Thank you for your perspectives. As I said, I do understand the reasons why agencies don’t take untried surrogates. It IS a hard thing, emotionally and physically, and the people who have undergone pregnancy are the ones best equipped to decide if they can or want to do it again. And while I think counseling is always a good thing, if I was actually willing to get pregnant just to become a surrogate, I would. Just because an idea occurs to me doesn’t mean I think it’s a good one.

        • You’re welcome. You sound like you have a good head on your shoulders and might be a good candidate for surrogacy in the future after you’ve been through a pregnancy. I also have to say that I think it’s wonderful that you’ve taken steps to become healthier. I hear of so many women who are angry with agencies over the BMI restriction and don’t feel their weight should be a factor. Glad to see that you know better! 🙂

      • I totally agree. Sounds like she is wanting to fill a void in her life with pregnancy and this may not be the right/healthiest choice. Just my opinion.

        • Morgan you honestly sound super ignorant. Thanks but not thanks to your unsolicited “opinion”. For many women wanting to be pregnant is a physical and psychological craving. Also, a lot of women – Just. Don’t. Want. Kids. Some women have BOTH desires – to want pregnancy but not parenthood (OOOOOH WHAT A CONCEPT.) Your comment sounds so condescending and judgmental, you’re truly pathetic. You don’t know if she has this “void” you’re talking about. You are not God and you don’t know everything. Even if she had a “void” to feel, that’s none of your damn concern and you have NO place to judge or condescend someone you don’t know. Perhaps there isn’t some conspiracy that you’re so obsessed over. Perhaps she’s a woman who simply wants to be pregnant and does not want the parenthood that comes with it. How about you respect women’s choices, decisions, and body and stay in YOUR PLACE! Sounds like you’re the one with the void. Fix yourself.

  10. I say hooray! to anyone who fully knows and understands their child having and rearing desires. Most don’t, which can result in a lot of heartache. You might change your mind one day and it might have nothing to do with being a surrogate. You seem to know yourself well enough to know if you really do.

  11. Thanks for sharing the perspective; it’s not one I’ve considered before!

    When I was pregnant with my son, I was grumpy and sore, but in general it wasn’t really that hard for me, short of a little sciatica. (And after 20 lbs of weight gain I ended the pregnancy at 290.)

    Now that my son is almost 2, I really want another baby — and part of that is that I miss the excitement of pregnancy. It’s like Christmas every day for nine months! If Christmas made you pee, assaulted you with violent nausea, and kicked you in the cervix occasionally.

    It’s lovely that someday you’ll be able to help your friend become a mother; if nothing else, having that pregnancy under your belt can lead to further surrogacy opportunities. Good luck! 😀 It’s a lovely, selfless thing that you’re preparing to undergo.


      “It’s like Christmas every day for nine months! If Christmas made you pee, assaulted you with violent nausea, and kicked you in the cervix occasionally.”

      That is exactly how I feel…well, my kicks are in the ribs, but I know what you mean. Christmas every day!

  12. Wow, now that’s a different perspective. If it weren’t for two wonderful women going through the 9 months of carrying a child, I wouldn’t be a mommy today!
    My heart goes out to you! I am wishing for your dreams to come true and that you will bless a family unable to have children become parents.

  13. I understand how you feel. I was always fascinated by pregnancy and was sure I wanted to be pregnant, even though I wasn’t sure how I felt about actually having kids. I considered surrogacy for a gay friend of mine as an option down the road.

    It wasn’t until I was 26 or so that I realized I did want a baby of my own after all. I just hadn’t been with guys I could actually imagine having a child with, and once I was with my fiance, all of a sudden, one day my biological clock just switched on and it screamed HAVE HIS BABY!!!

    He has a daughter and wasn’t sure if he wanted another kid, so I trained as a doula to legitimize all my research and reading without freaking him out too much (I had hoped). I would really recommend you take the doula workshops available, I think you would really enjoy them, you learn so much about pregnancy and childbirth. It was fascinating!

    • Exactly! I met the man who is absolutely my soulmate in September, and we got married in October. If someone had asked me in August if I wanted kids, I would have laughed at them. I’d been vehemently opposed to the idea for as long as I can remember…but within days of meeting him, that alarm clock went off and I’m afflicted with the constant ache of knowing a tiny little part of our life is missing. The timing is not perfect for us right now, but I really hope soon we’ll be able to work on completing that missing piece!

  14. I’m also really facinated by pregnancy. But I do want to be a parent too. I hope so much that I will be able to experience pregnancy for myself one day. Just the idea of carrying and growing another human being inside me seems incredible. There’s nothing else in the world like it. But if for any reason I am unable to get pregnant, I hope there are other women out there like you who are generous enough to be surrogates.

  15. YES YES YES!! Thank YOU, Cassie for writing this and OBM for posting it! Hell yes! This is me! I’m not sure i want to be a surrogate necessarily and haven’t really looked much into it but i’ve always been SO into pregnancy and pregnant women but so NOT into the idea of a lifetime commitment following the amazing experiment. I mean no offense at all in calling pregnancy an experiment, in fact that’s my fascination with it – my body can do this crazy thing, all on it’s own, and produce an incredibly independent result. Insane! I’m blown away by the fact that anyone’s body can do this and to top it off that i could have the privilege of seeing my body do this wild thing that not even all bodies are capable. It’s such an amazing aspect of biology and humanity that i feel like i would miss out on a really stunning piece of my body’s abilities to not take it up on the offer.

    …. But i’m not so into the product, just the process.

    Everyone i’ve told this to, like your audience, at best gives me the “whaa?” face and at worst gives me the “what the fuck?” glare. Thank you for sharing that there are other women who feel this

    • but if the product (baby) is half of you, how could you not be into the product (your baby) that is half of you? that is kinda harsh. i can understand become a surrogate for someone else because they can’t conceive… but to call a baby a product??

  16. I also have been fascinated by pregnancy, although did all I could do to prevent it for years. I’m currently in my seventh month and a combination of reading this and some stark introspection has made me realize that while I really, really wanted to be pregnant (and am having a great time of it!), I never gave as much thought to what comes after.

    The pregnancy thing? I had this huge emotional attachment to the concept before it happened, it was this great journey that I hoped to embark upon some day.

    Motherhood? I want to be a mother – intellectually, that is – but I’m not as psyched emotionally. In fact, I’m terrified. I think it’s the whole “responsible for creating a critically-thinking person” thing that I’m worried about. No matter whether the kid comes out of your uterus or someone else’s, that’s something that every parent has to deal with.

    • it will come. just remember they come out tiny and helpless and all they want is to be held, talked to, fed, changed, a warm bed, clean clothes, and your love. you both grow at the same time… motherhood does not happen over night. you are not suddenly thrust a two year old and told, “here, be a mommy!” you will be fine. your style, ideas, ideals, and your desires will form over time and grow and change with each situation. the glorious thing is you get to figure it out as you go! and even if you make mistakes, you can always fix them the next day.

  17. I can relate on a lot of levels. I’ve always wanted to be pregnant. I’m only 20. I was told at the age of 18 that due to severe scarring of the uterus and fallopian tubes that I would never be able to conceive. It made my clock tick A LOT louder. The more I thought about it though, I knew I wasn’t ready to be a mother… but I still wanted all of those feelings that come with pregnancy. I wanted to know what it was like to have a little human growing inside of you. And then one day, my little pee stick turned positive. I cried, I worried, I cried some more…. I’m getting what I wanted (I’m currently 3 and 1/2 months pregnant) But there is that BIG voice in my head screaming at me constantly. “You don’t want a kid of your own! you love your sleep! You like your freedom! You aren’t ready!” But ready or not, here I go. I got my cake…. but now I have to eat it too.

    • I went through the same thing. I was told at 18 I wouldn’t have kids because of scarring and then a year later found out I was pregnant! I was scared through the whole pregnancy that I wouldn’t be able to give up my freedom and focus on being a mom. My son is now two months old though, and I really shouldn’t have worried at all 🙂 Having a baby is so amazing it wasn’t hard to give up anything at all 🙂 It’s a new,awesome adventure!

    • I am so moved by this. I am an aunt and met my new nephew for the first time today, and I cried because I have always wanted to know what it is like to be pregnant and give birth, maybe have a baby for a little bit… but at the same time, I don’t want to give up my freedom and the good financial standing I have worked so hard for. But, I can’t have children due to scarring and fibroids, and my husband adamantly doesn’t want them anyway. I always wondered if it was normal to have those mixed feelings and actually cry about it. I’m glad to know there are others who have felt this way, and my heart and prayers go out to you as you begin this journey.

  18. I am incredibly happy that there are other people out there like me! I have one beautiful son, and no desire to have any more of my own…but, from about 2 months after he was born, I’ve wanted to be a surrogate. I have a problem with being overweight as well, but am in the process of changing that…hopefully by this time next year, I will be eligible. =0)

  19. This makes perfect sense to me, too. I have a 4.5 year old and have always wanted a kid, but also been HUGELY fascinated/ loved pregnancy… Unfortunately, now I have a history of primary inferitility and secondary miscarriage. So, coupling that with my desire to never take hormonal drugs again, surragacy isn’t an option for me, ever. I hope it works out for you!

  20. Wow, this is amazing! Although I don’t want to be a surrogate, I completely understand why someone would want to do it. Being pregnant is amazing, I’ve never felt more beautiful [as cliche as that might sound]. Having a child is a huge responsibility and its super expensive! So being able to have the experience of giving life without having the responsibility would probably be the perfect scenero.
    With saying that, I love my son and I was sick most of it though and had tons of complications so I kind of feel like earn him and I don’t after going through all that I could give him up. I really miss sleeping though.

  21. Thank you so much for posting this and I look forward to more articles about surrogacy. I absolutely loved being pregnant, but at the moment we are debating whether we will want to have another in a few years. My sister has talked about me carrying for her if she is unable to for health reasons. There’s a lot of bubbles bouncing around in my head at the moment and this article was needed!

  22. Thanks for sharing your story, as others have said it is very brave of you.

    Re: the not having already been pregnant thing- I know egg donation and surrogacy are not the same thing, but my experience was that when I and my sister both offered to donate our eggs to a relative, my sister was not considered an option (by the IVF clinic and in line with Australian legislation) due to the fact she did not have kids of her own- I, having had my own child, was considered an appropriate candidate.

    This was because my sis, never having been pregnant/been a parent, did not know what it was like to be pregnant, give birth and then parent- so apparently she was more likely to forge a bond with the baby (my genes = my baby= weirdness after baby is born)as she did not have the ‘parental measuring stick’ so to speak.

    I, on the other hand, was supposedly more able to disconnect the donation of my eggs from the concept of motherhood/parenting etc.

    I can’t say my sister would have felt motherly feelings towards bubs when he was born, she probably wouldn’t, but I Can say that donating the eggs for my was so far removed from havign my own son I have zero maernal feelings towards bubs.

    I wonder, what are the reasons surrogates are to have had kids already- is it all about the physical stuff, ie will the pregnancy be successful, or is it due to other factors like with us?

    • It’s mainly for the physical reasons (which are BIG BIG reasons – you have to remember that IPs are paying a LOT of money to have a surrogate and they want the best possible chance of success and lowest possible risk factor), but the psychological aspect plays a role as well. Pregnancy does affect you psychologically, after all. Someone who has never been pregnant doesn’t REALLY know whether or not they’d have a hard time with the bond because they’ve never been there. On the other hand, since I’ve been pregnant before I know without a doubt that I am NOT going to bond with my surrobabe the same way I did with my own children in utero. 99% of women I talk to about surrogacy who are mothers will say “I could never do that, I could not carry the baby for 9 months and give it up.” They can’t separate motherhood from pregnancy. And that is why only a select few people are truly cut out to be surrogates.

      • They can’t separate motherhood from pregnancy. And that is why only a select few people are truly cut out to be surrogates.

        I just wanted to say that I agree, because I am that woman. Our son was unplanned, and there was brief talk about adoption — but I knew the second I tried to visualize it that I couldn’t possibly. I, who gets sentimental about bits of ribbon, could not possibly carry a child to term and walk away.

        That said, I think the process is fascinating.

        • Pregnancy definitely forms a strong bond! I’m very protective of and in love with this baby I’m growing that is not mine. It’s not the same as it was with my own children, but there is a bond. I will add though that there are two types of surrogacy, traditional (the carrier uses her own egg) and gestational (the carrier uses the mother’s or donor’s egg). I am a gestational carrier and the baby is not genetically related to me at all. I too could never fathom giving up my own child. But going into it knowing from the beginning that it’s not your baby changes things entirely.

    • I am also Australian and have been attempting to donate my eggs on and off for about 10 years now (I am now in early 30s) and and knocked back soley because I have not had children. So there would be no pregnancy, I just want to give someone else to opportunity to someone else to use my eggs that I am not using. I will keep trying, but I don’t see any of the IVF companies accepting my eggs anytime soon.

      • How frustrating! Its hard to give in Australia sometimes!

        Sometimes it seems the regulations don’t make sense. When we had our compulsory counselling sessions, we all felt like we were trying to get this balancing act of not seeming too casual about it (which I was to be honest – just felt like I was donating blood, but with a more exiting outcome) or alternatively, not seeming too into the idea for fear of coming across as a possible crazy-egg-donor-mama. Oh the questions we were asked!

        The most insane part of the regulatory process for me was that I could not donate my eggs without my partner giving consent- I could have an abortion without his consent no problems, but could not donate my eggs without permission!

        I know of a few couples/single women/same sex couples that have basically worked the system and lied in order to access the ivf/egg donor system in Australia, just to get around the red tape

        • And yet, in the same breath they complain there aren’t enough donors! A friend of mine is a sperm donor and had to go through the same spouse consent you mentioned.

          I should add I do think counselling is important just in case there is a knock at the door in 18 years, but I do think that the laws for both egg and sperm donation are pretty mad.

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