This has taken a lot of lady balls to post. But you know what?! #effyourbeautystandards! People may make assumptions about me — the way I dress, the way I carry myself — but let me tell you my story…
I have struggled almost my whole life with poor self image. It was a lot worse growing up; it started very young in my pre-teens and it affected everything I saw in the mirror, not just my body. It’s only been in my adult years where I’ve truly started to accept me for me — with the support (and beautiful, encouraging words) of my amazing hubby.
What’s funny is that I’m now more comfortable with myself at my largest at 30 years old and 100kgs and a size 16-18, than I was around 6-8 years ago when I was 59kgs and a tiny size 6-8. I really wish I could go back and slap myself when I first thought I was “fat”.
Yes, I have Polycystic Ovary Syndrome.
Yes, I battle depression.
Yes, I’m an emotional eater.
Yes, all this affects my moods, energy levels and the way my body doesn’t like to shift fat.
I’ve also been quite sick on and off for the past seven to eight months (which I’m getting tests for to find out what’s actually wrong), but this has sadly put a halt on the bootcamp training we were doing several nights a week.
But that’s okay! It does NOT affect my worth, and I will keep up the fight. Of course, I still have days where I struggle, but every day I’m a little more free than I was the day before.
The number on the scale does NOT define me.
Now that you’ve read Tash’s amazing body positive message, head over to our sister site Offbeat Bride to see her put that attitude in action at her elegant goth wedding in a cave!