Why electroconvulsive therapy was the closest thing to a magic bullet I’ve found for my depression

When I requested electroshock (also known as electroconvulsive therapy or ECT) from my psychiatrist, she was shocked that I was actually requesting it. Nearly every medical professional I spoke to on my ECT journey made a concerted effort to sing its praises and try to convince me to stick with it. I didn't need convincing, and I am incredibly glad that I stuck with it. ECT has helped me in ways that no other treatment has, lifting me out of a 15+ year fog of depression and making me much more capable of functioning like a "normal" adult.

Running as metaphor: how suffering shapes your perception of life and how you can use it to grow

I listened to a podcast on my run the other day about purpose, perseverance, and the close connection that exists between passion and suffering. The magic that happens when you embrace suffering and seek the impossible. To be willing to suffer for the things you're passionate about. So that podcast led me to thinking about suffering in all its forms and whether it can be turned into a growing experience…

Establishing boundaries with the news without numbing out

What on earth am I searching for, I wonder, as I open up Facebook, Instagram, the NY Times app, my work email, my personal email, my other work email, my text messages, Facebook Messenger (I just navigated away from this post to check it again) for the nth time, on loop, in a spiral? What?

Again and again and again I interface with this lesson. I get sucked dry online. Decimated. Emotionally drained and psychologically whipped. I become ineffective and pulled around by bait and hate and wait — why?

I'm pregnant and in a metal band: how do I protect baby's hearing?

I'm an audio engineer and an electric violinist for a metal band, and just found out that I'm pregnant. It's early days, but do I need to cancel gigs after a certain point? As an engineer, I experience up to 105db at work, but generally staying under 90db. As a musician, though, I'm onstage next to drum kits and loud amps, including my own, for an average set of 50 minutes. Is there anything I can do to keep them safe without cancelling gigs?