I’m trying to figure out how to fit all our stuff (and newly acquired stuff) into our little Honda CRV, lil S is running around with the dog and dahma (grandma), and we are about to head out on the open road to see the dad and aunty who are working there. It’s funny, really… seven months ago we were in North Carolina, having just moved out of our apartment and finished locking up all our belongings in storage. We traveled down here with our dad/partner who had to leave after a week to venture out for new work opportunities on the West Coast. Back then, I had no idea how everything would work out.
And guess what?
I still don’t know how everything is going to work out.
We’re still all locked up in storage.
We’re still living out of suitcases and carrying around only the basic (cute) essentials and art supplies.
We’re still separated from our patriarch.
But now — now I am not scared, frustrated, nor angry.
Okay, I’m still a little angry from time to time when things come up regarding new information from our lawyer (we’re dealing with a case of lead poisoning at our former home) and how rotten our ex-landlords are being now. Yes, as new info comes down the email or voicemail pipeline, I get all Hulk Mom Smash, and then I get on with things because I have to. For me, for her, for us.
As I pack all our things up again and try to fit it Tetris style into our SUV and keep a positive outlook for our travel across the Southeastern parts of the US… again… I now have a renewed sense of peace and purpose. Not to say that I lost my purpose along the way, but everything can become really convoluted and confusing when you’re trying to bounce around living with family members, make sure that your little is maintaining good health, make sure that you are maintaining good health, and figure out your next moves.
Unlike seven months ago, when the thought of not having full access to all our STUFF and THINGS would have given me hives (like for reals), now I’m working with what we have and living with less. And you know what? You can always have less than what you think you need.
We are definitely fully living in a QUALITY vs QUANTITY mode right now, and it feels great. Now, if you saw how absolutely overstuffed our car is for travel you would think we were more focused on the quantity side, but really that’s just because I chose to travel with three pretty large items that take up a lot of room: my large suitcase, her large fancy stroller, and the Pack ‘n Play/small suitcase combo. Those three pretty much take up the entire back of our CRV trunk area. Which leaves me to carefully Tetris in the remaining items we travel with: toiletries, shoes, toys, hanging bags of clothes, shoes, games, toys, food stuffs, travel high chair, shoes, toys, books-books-books, electronics, art supplies, bedding, and oh yeah — toys.
We got on the road again and our four and a half hour drive to Nashville took seven. Honestly, I’m surprised it didn’t take longer. By the time we got to the hotel I was concerned about our ten-hour drive ahead of us. I really wanted to get us to our family and did not want to stay at another hotel nor wake up to another sunrise without our partner/dad. So in my mind I just kept saying, “Jess, you got this. Just do the whole drive.”
I haven’t slept this good since before I was pregnant.
The next day we set out. Our drive was pretty uneventful. We did it and we made it to St Louis just in time to see this:
Minus the blurriness of the photo that I pulled over on the side of Kings Highway to take, hows that for a beautiful picture? And this is absolutely no filter of any kind. Those pinks, purples, whites, and blues just punch me in eyeballs with beauty. There’s a lot of good things I can say about the Midwest, even with my Negative Nelly ‘tude against Chicago, but one of the top things I love about Mid America are the sunsets. They are paintings are they not?
As we made our way through this beautiful sunset and out of St Louis proper, I started feeling the heavy food coma setting in and started thinking, “Hmm, maybe we should stop. Maybe another 5 plus hours in the car isn’t a good idea.” Then we passed a sign for “Ashleyville.” Then we passed not one but two Ashley furniture places. Then I found a drive through coffee and my receipt total was $7.77. Then we hunkered down and took six hours to drive from St Louis to Topeka Kansas and to our partner/dad.
So yes, we made it.
And now we are with our family and we are happy.
And we are sleeping better than ever.