We were in what many people would consider a “dream” situation for a first child. My husband and I had been married for over two years, we own the place where we live and we both have reasonably stable jobs. Despite all of this, I was devastated to find myself pregnant. I felt totally unprepared for this major life change — like I had been cheated out of the second half of my twenties, like I hadn’t gotten enough time alone with my husband. I was numb for about 36 hours after we found out.
My partner recently adopted our daughter — the one she has parented since birth — and simultaneously everything and nothing about our family changed .
What is babycrack? It’s that irrational little voice in your head telling you yesssss, you want a babeeeee. Even if you can barely pay your rennnnnt…
I struggled with infertility for five years before conceiving my son … and a big part of the challenge was the fact that it was a secret. Maybe it’s time to tell my story. You should know, this is a long, long story.